What you need is to spend a few months with Kenny Weners book "Effortless Mastery". If you dedicate yourself to it you WILL no longer have that problem.
The Magic really starts to happen when you can play it with your eyes closed
Sometimes, after I've warmed up, I sit at the bar and have a conversation with someone. I try to stay focused on them and not let my internal anxiety raise at all. Taking deep breaths, keeping the pace of the conversation slow and relaxed, it calms me down and takes my mind off of any internal rumblings.
The only time I feel uncomfortable performing is if I have to do something I don't truly know. After years with Kenny by my bedside, so long as I don't have to play a head I don't know at all, or really odd changes I haven't seen I am relaxed. Beleive me when I say it wasn't always that way for me LOL
The Magic really starts to happen when you can play it with your eyes closed
I totally know when you are saying and I completely realize that most people aren't actively listening. I am at more like 65-70% "live" then when I am at home. Perhaps I need to reread this Werner book, but I think its just a matter of putting time in and simultaneously putting faith in your practice and not giving a crap what your perception of the audience's perception of you is.
You are definitely correct. The way I wrote my post may have made is seem as if this is what the book says, which is not true....there is a lot more. I equate myself person he describes early on in the book, who beats himself up on a bad night and relives the glory in his head when he hits a good solo after it is done, only to be disappointed the next gig.
It is definitely worth a re-read.
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Meditating is also a strong suggestion in that book.
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It is definitely worth a re-read.